1. Introduce yourself(tell about yourself & who you are)
Hi! I m Anvesha, also known as Anne, a proud Indian citizen, and i celebrated my 16th birthday on 10th may 2022. My pronouns are she/they and i am in 11th grade, preparing for JEE 2024. And, point to be noted, I love music.
2. What are your passions in life that you’ve always wanted to do?
I wanted to be a musician, i was in 6th grade when i grew fond of playing a guitar, guitar is my first love, the love of my live to be honest, since then i wanted to be a musician. I was really good at studies, mathematics being my favourite subject, my family guided me to enter the engineering lane, due to which, engineering was the only thing on mind since the beginning, i knew from the beginning that i m going to be an engineer that’s it, and here i am, preparing for world’s second toughest exam, JEE, the engineering entrance exam. I am sure I’ll be able to do what I want to do after my engineering is done, i hope I’ll be a musician one day.
3. What are some goals in life you’d like to complete?
If we talk about life goals, of course my first goal is to crack IIT JEE, and after my bachelor’s degree, I’d love to go abroad for further studies, MIT is my dream institute, i hope i get there one day. My second life goal is to settle in Manchester City, I’ve always been in love with Manchester, i feel connected to that place without even though i haven’t been there, i feel that i belong there, so yeah i want to spend most of my life in Manchester, or in any other city of England. Another life goal, be a musician one day, maybe a part time job playing at different places, different streets, but, it’s what i really want to do. And last, but not the least, i wanna travel around the world, discover various things, study the variations from place to place.
4. What is a positive message you’d like to share with people around the world?
All i wanna say is, there’s nothing that can stop you from achieving your dreams, you just need to plan it out well, life is too short to complain so just live your life, live the way you want. Try to find yourself, try to find who you really are and who you really wanna be. Try to figure out what the things you can do, and do whatever you want.
5. If you could describe a perfect world what would it look like to you?
A perfect world for me is the world where everyone can be whoever they wanna be. A perfect world is a place of freedom, freedom of choice, freedom to be with whoever we wanna be, freedom to love whoever we wanna love, freedom to be who you really are. A perfect world is a place where you can be ‘you’ without hiding it from anyone. A perfect world might not be filled with happiness, there will be sorrow in life that will increase the value of happiness, a perfect world would be deprived of violence, a perfect world would be a peaceful place where every living being is welcomed wholeheartedly. A perfect world is a free world.
6. What are some mental struggles you’ve faced in life and how did you overcome them?
The biggest mental struggle I’ve faced was my confusion of my sexuality, the struggle that most of us go though at a certain point in life. The only way to overcome this struggle is to find your true self,but then i didn’t fit in any of the labels, i couldn’t find the most suitable label for myself then i understood that i don’t need labels, i dont need to be labelled if it’s getting difficult for me, i can be whoever i wanna be without any labels. You just need to embrace my trueself and that’s all, it solves everything. Another mental struggle was my brain questioning me “what is family?”, It was a hard time for me, i didn’t know what an actual family means, what do I mean to my family, is this what a family looks like? There were many questions in my head cause it was a hard time for me living with my family, when i was struggling to find my true self, i was struggling to find my happiness and my family didn’t seem supportive in that matter. It hurt. I fulfilled all of their wishes, all of their desires, but, i didn’t get anything from them, all i ever wanted from them was love, i just wanted to be loved and it didn’t feel like that living amongst them. It didn’t feel like home. I felt alone in a crowded room. I wanted to spend time with them, i wanted them to be with me, i wanted them to support me, i wanted them to acknowledge me, to appreciate me, to know me, to be with me by my side. I used to ask myself “did i ask for too much?”, And i was a hard time to be honest. I thought i wouldn’t survive. But then, since i am s music lover, music healed me, music helped me to overcome the fact that i need to let them go, i cant expect love from everyone, and they won’t hurt me anymore if i let them go, it won’t hurt if i detach myself from them. That’s what I did, i started living for myself, i started living for my own dreams, and, i guess i m much more happier now. And i think, i love my family till today, and i think they love me too, most probably. Music changed my life to be fair. Lesson learnt, listen to two things: your heart and music. Another mental struggle: depression (existential crisis, as well as post result depression) To overcome existential depresion, i said to myself, “you are completely valid” and that’s all, YOU are completely valid, no matter how many variations you have , no matter how different are you from others, no matter what, YOU are completely valid, and you are loved. For post result depression, i m probably gonna face that again in 2024, but, it’s ok, i said to myself, “it’s fine, one day you’ll what you actually wanna do, one day you’ll be fine, everything’s gonna be fine”, and most importantly, music saved me. It is music that i m here today. Always listen to music, always.
7. How would you like to make an impact in the world if you could?
If i had the power to change the world, i would make this world less homophobic, i would make this world the ‘perfect world’ as I mentioned before. Also, I would try my best to unite the world as one unit, no wars, no violence, just peace and love. It sounds like a dream world, but, it’s possible if we all join our hands, if we all get together. I would make this world colourful.