Name: Chase Estes
Instagram Handle/Username: chayestes
Introduce Yourself/Tell About Yourself: I’m a 16 year old girl. I live in upstate Ny. I’m 5’10, which is kinda tall for a girl and i’m in 11th grade. I take college art courses at SUNY acc in Saratoga. I do indoor and outdoor track and have quite a few friends. I’m one of 5 kids. There’s Gage, Brandon, me, Rowan, and Piper (in order from oldest to youngest). Both my brothers are my half siblings, we share a Dad, and my sisters are my full siblings. I also have two dogs, both pit bulls, Kane and Sugar Britches. I had a cat at the beginning of quarantine, but she didn’t last long.
What Inspires You Every day? : I just wake up every day hoping things will be better. Nothing ever changes, but I figure if I keep a little hope, maybe something will happen. I love art and photography, so that’s what keeps me going. I also have a lot of friends, even when I say I don’t. I’d say almost everyone in my school knows me. I’ve always been pretty popular because I’m tall and skinny, and I now have blue hair. You either know me as the girl who’s really tall or the girl who never stops dying her hair.
What is some words of wisdom you live by?: I think that the only words that keep me going are “ You’ll never know what might come tomorrow if you end today.” I don’t know where I’ve heard it before, but I think it kinda helps me stay focused. I’ve always battled with depression and attempted before, but I think that if i keep a good mindset, life should be better after I graduate.
What is your ultimate goal in life? : My ultimate goal is to be happy. I don’t know what I want to do when I’m older, I have nothing planned. For years I’ve just said that I want to move into a van and travel. I don’t really want my own kids and if I do have my own kids, it won’t be till we’ll past 25. I just want to move into a van in South Carolina and go on road trips and live.
How have you been during the pandemic and how has it affected you? : I think that at the beginning of this pandemic, I thought it was a bad thing. I think we all hated the virus at the start, but in the end it had really helped change me. Looking back at photos of me from before quarantine is scary. I look and feel completely different. There are some good things that came out of it and some bad. Something good is that, but while in quarantine I had a lot of time to think and I got to redo my room and change my style, try out photography again, make new friends and do things that I never had time for before. A bad thing would be, right at the start of the quarantine, my ex unblocked me on all socials and started hitting me up again. I think at the time I just kinda didn’t know what to do, so of course that started another toxic cycle with him and put me in a bad place emotionally. Overall if I had to live through another quarantine, I would. I think it was lonely, but it let my head wander and truly find myself.
What is a positive message you would like to give others? : I would like to say, stop caring about what other people think. I mean it, their opinions don’t matter. It’s really just a matter of what YOU think. Especially in school, people can be very toxic and I think that you shouldn’t let that get to you. At my school I get made fun of for having colored hair, not being black enough, being too tall, being too skinny, being too annoying. None of these things truly matter in the end. All that matters is that you love yourself for who you are.
What questions would you like to ask others?: I would like to ask others how they do it. How these people live their lives and are so positive and happy. I dread waking up every morning. I want to know how these people end up successful and living their dreams, because I’m scared for the future and what’s to come.