Name: jessica blevins

Instagram Handle/Username: _its.not.jess

Introduce Yourself/Tell About Yourself: Hi I’m Jessica Blevins I’m a high school student at West Wilkes hi school, growing up I lived in a home with my adoptive mom and dad and it was pretty well and then my mom and dad got divorced since then it’s been me and my stepdad and my mom. I do dance for a really long time and then I started doing cheer and I fell in love with cheer and now I’m on my high school cheer team. I suffer with bad depression anxiety and when a depression gets really bad I get really bad unmotivated and I feel like not doing nothing neI’m Jessica Blevins I’m a high school student at West Wilkes hi school, growing up I lived in a home with my adoptive mom and dad and it was pretty well and then my mom and dad got divorced since then it’s been me and my stepdad and my mom. I do dance for a really long time and then I started doing cheer and I fell in love with cheer and now I’m on my high school cheer team. I suffer with bad depression anxiety and when a depression gets really bad I get really bad unmotivated and I feel like not doing nothing, so when i do do things it do it with full potential. when i grow up i wanna either be in law school studying law, or on social media platforms. i love Criminal Minds, and really anything to do with crime so anything like that inspires me!

What Inspires You Every day? : What inspires me every day is my mom, she has gone through a lot and she’s been put through a lot but she’s also grown from everything she’s been through. She lost her dad about three years ago and she fell into a really bad depression as well and just seeing her grow from that and doing the best she can makes me inspired because it makes me think if she can do anything I can do anything so she has a really big impact in my life and that’s who inspires me.

What is some words of wisdom you live by?:What is some words of wisdom I live by? That would be “believe in yourself before you believe in anybody else “my grandpa told me this when I was Really young and when I lost him I lost myself too, it was really hard for me to go on knowing that he wasn’t here anymore but knowing that he believed me really helped me because I knew that he believed in me no matter where he was. When you are so far gone in life and so unhappy it’s really hard to believe in yourself, and you look around and you see all these people who care about and you can’t let them know that you’re hurting so you try to make them happy but by doing that you’re just drawling yourself further away from the person that you really want to be. No matter how hard school gets, work gets, relationship gets, even Sports get never stop believing in yourself because God would never put you through something he didn’t think you’d get out of! 

What is your ultimate goal in life? : My ultimate goal in life is just to be overall happy with the person I am. Even though I consider myself very I don’t know positive I still have my days where I just wanna lay in bed and not do nothing and I want to be alone and I just don’t wanna be here no more. I would love to be in a place where it brings me such joy and happiness and reassurance that I put myself in this place and that I worked so hard to get here and I would just want to be proud of myself for it and I think that’s what my ultimate goal in life is.

How have you been during the pandemic and how has it affected you? : During the pandemic it’s been very very hard on me especially with school, I’m usually very good at school on top of things and always an averagely good student revolving around grades. During the pandemic I’ve got a into a really bad depression so bad that I lost three of the closest people that I’ve ever had in my whole entire life, luckily I’ve gotten two of them back and I’ve grown to notice that one of them wasn’t good for me anymore. I thank God every day for the opportunities that I’ve had and the things that he has brought me and that he he given me and I couldn’t be any more thankful for him. With all that being said I really really hope that I become a better person especially revolving around my depression, I wouldn’t wish depression on my worst enemy it’s a very hard thing to deal with and to come out of especially when you’re a teenager in the middle of the pandemic. So I think I’m doing pretty good about the same time I could do better.

What is a positive message you would like to give others? : A positive message that I would give others especially a positive message that I wish I gotten when I was younger is to never care what other people think about you, there’s so much negativity and hate in this world and if you let it get to you you’ll turn into that hate and negativity. Growing up I was never the petite young girl,I’m big boned so when people would look at me they’d think damn that’s a big girl LOL and honestly I’ve gotten to the point where yes I am a big girl and there’s nothing I can do about it it’s the way I was born but when I was little it really got to me, I would go home crying,I would starve myself,I would never want to eat, I would wear myself out so much to where I’d sleep for hours
upon hours. It’s gotten better because I tell myself every day that I am beautiful and I am worth it and if others can’t see that it’s because they have created a reality in their mind that doesn’t fit actual reality. For me not caring what other people think is so important especially in 2020 because not everyone is going to agree on your beliefs on your opinions on the way you dress on the way style your hair on the way you wear your make up. so with that being said if you love yourself and you know that they’re just mad and jealous, it’s really can’t get any better, it really can’t. So always Love yourself and f*ck what other people think!

What questions would you like to ask others?:some of the questions I’d like to ask others is how can you know when it’s OK to let that certain person go. When you’ve tried so hard for that person and that person means everything to you but you know that if you wait any longer it’s just going to destroy you. how do you just let that go how do you let that person go even though you know you have to.